Tuesday 25 June 2013

The Single Mom - My Hero

I often sit and find myself thinking 'what if', what if I become that single mother, what if he leaves me...leaves us? WHAT IF???

Then I look back, I look to all the single mothers I know. These are a new breed of woman I tell you. Their strength is endless, the love and courage goes beyond what any one person should go through. I look to these woman in my life and I smile. I have them, they have me.

I wonder, your heart is bleeding inside but you have the widest and happiest smile when you see your baby girl  or boy running towards you. That, my people, that is what a mothers love is made of. It asks not 'mommy can I leave you alone for 2 minutes so you can wash your face and wipe away your tears'! It is blind. Your children are oblivious because you, the strong one, only want to show them love and laughter.

The few bad species of men out there take the cake! How? How do you shove the mother of your child away and swear at her in front of your spawn? How do you take that love that the mother of your child so badly wants to share with you and throw it back in her face as if creating life together was meaningless? How do you deny your seed that is the exact replica of you? Your smile, your nose, your mouth?

That is why these day, when a man is doing what he is suppose to be doing in the first place gets praise simply for still 'being there'.

I now understand that love you have for the father of your children. It runs deep, deeper than any hole man can ever dig. He, the donor, the other 'half' of the biological make up of your baby will forever have that place in your heart.

Today I want to take time out and be grateful for the father of my unborn child. I cannot be easy being around me! I know I am not the easiest of people to be around, add some hormones to that and you have a crazy person. But I must give thanks where it is due, for the support and love that Yellow provides. Not only from him, but from single mothers everywhere!!! For the strength I draw from the mothers around me.

To you, the single mom, you are a hero!




Friday 21 June 2013

Expecting and Working

Hello readers:)

First of all, we made it to the papers today, in more ways than one! As most know, I'm studying Media Studies, specialising in Public Relations. Instead of being home, on holiday, putting my feet up to relax...I'm doing the 8-5 thing, interning at the National Broadcasting Corporation (NBC).

So I have my heels on, my big girl handbag and I'm trying to build my name up in the corporate world. I'm not only doing this for myself, but now for the well being of my little goga!

We are 15 weeks pregnant today, by the way. Next week we officially 4 months pregnant!!!

Working while pregnant...I think this would have been harder in my 1st semester, the way I slept was no joke!  Now I'm in my second semester and I feel like I'm busrting with energy!!! I think the only thing I have to be aware of is my love for heels, I've read that during pregancy woman often lose their centre of balance. Here's what I'll do, as soon as I start to wobble when I walk...off with the heels:) #BabyComesFirst

All working and expecting mommies out there, beware when hunger strikes!!! Never thought I could eat so much...like a man does:/ Guess I've officially started eating for two! I think for me, the biggest trick is to eat a healthy hearty breakfast in the morning. Even though by 10am I'm hungry again. This is where snacks come in...here are a few that I pack to keep me going till lunch:

Carrot Sticks - healthy and filling
Fruits, mainly apples and oranges
Biscuits (Romany Creams)
NB!!! Always have water, it's so important to keep hydrated:)

One problem I've encountered is forgetting to take my vitamins! Bad I know...but here's a tip, place a reminder on your computer screen, or set an alarm on your phone. Mutli-vitamins help keep you and baby healthy and provide you with all the essentials you may not be getting from your daily diet.

Before I started working, Yellow wanted to hear nothing of it! He's a first time dad and all he does is worry about me and baba. Ladies, you have to let your man know that many woman before you have worked while pregnant, some even to the very last till day or up to the date of delivery. Ensure him that you will keep eating healthy and that both you and baby will be fine. Bless their hearts, make sure that they understand you can work and still have a healthy baby in the oven!

No holiday for me...I'll rest when baba arrives! For now, I'll stick to learning about the corporate world, one baby step at a time.

Till next time
xoxo


Sunday 16 June 2013

The good, the bad, the ugly:)

The Ugly 
 Morning Sickness

None of my girls had morning sickness...all but one! Whose tips saved me, and thank you for Google! There is no real remedy out there, however, there are things you can do to ease the queasiness and keep some food down! Here's what worked for me;

*toast bread (dry or with butter)
*party mix crackers
*tura ys/ys bompies/ice lollies ...anything cold helped!!!

Morning sickness is but one of the hurdles some of us will have to go through, hang in there ladies! Now that I'm in my second trimester all that is gone, yay me!!!

The Bad

So while most people are happy for you and you are drowning in sheer bliss, there are others out there who might make it their mission to throw in a word or two to get your spirits down. Whether it be from unsupportive family members or friends, I think the best way to deal with it is to steer clear of such folks and comfort yourself in the thoughts that in a few months you will be holding the beautiful gift of life in your hands. Find comfort in your happiness, the love you feel for your unborn should comfort and guide you to banish all the evil and bad that might come your way. It will be hard, no one ever said it will be easy...but you have to stay strong. Being in a positive state of mind and stress free is not only good for you as a mommy-to-be, but it's vital for your little light!

Life does not end with a baby on the way, I've been told I'm boring now, simply because I feel it's important to protect my unborn, in a sense that I would find appropriate to stay away from shabeens and other such rowdy places for the well being of my goga. 'Let them talk', is that not the saying? Do what you feel you have to do, by all means, let them say what they have to say!

The Good

Now that drinking, smoking and clubbing are off my list of things to do, one might wonder 'what do you keep yourself busy with?' There's tons to do...catch up on reading, hey, start a blog! Make time for your girls, gather for cooking evenings indoors, watch movies/series, go eat out at some good restaurants:) I've set a challenge for myself, I recently came across the 'Windhoek Restaurant Guide', so I decided, hey, why not?! Soon I'll be really 'eating for two' and it's fun and a great way to get out the house and do something fun! I've marked all the places I've already been to and actually had a meal at...next step, every second week I will be visiting a restaurant/café I have not been to yet! My tour should be done once I've visited all the places in the book:) Sounds yummy I know!

I started off with the Chinese Restaurant, Yang Tze, I had pork and vegetables with noodles and a spring roll! Delicious:)

So find something that interests you and have fun with it!!! This is the time to do all the things you did not really have time for before!

Well, as of next week I will be interning at the NBC...pregnant and working, more to keep me occupied!!!


Till next time xoxo

Monday 10 June 2013

My Dancing Bean and Heartbeat:):):)

Tears of joy are so real!!!

A month after I received the news of my little goga, I was scheduled in for my very 1st ultrasound at only 8 weeks! Yellow firmly glued to my side, we walked into the doctors office together. Yellow is weird, for lack of a better word, a man's man...but at that moment, when we were about to see our baby for the first time, he was jut a ball of nerves, kind of looked like he wanted to shed a tear or two himself. Aint no shame or blame in that ladies, if it's his first baby too, imagine how overwhelmed with emotions he must be too!!!

There was our goga, but a little dot with a heartbeat, and my, does that heart beat ever so fast!!!! "Look! Did you see that", this my doctor, with so much excitement in his tone, our baby bean did a little bounce. Mommy and daddy's little dancing bean:):):) How my heart melted!!!

Our next appointment was scheduled for June 5th. In between there's going for blood tests, being poked and prodded at isn't much fun hey, especially if you are not that fond of needles, but then again, who is right??? The night before our next appointment, I get a call from mommy dearest, bless her soul, she asked if she could come with, I agreed.

If you're parents want to be supportive and take part in the on goings of the little one, I say allow them! She seems elated to be granny again!

And there the 3 of us were, myself, Yellow and mom. I must admit I felt a tad bit awkward, but we laughed it off when mom pulled out a video recorder. She wants us to get everything, well I hope not EVERYTHING recorded. Doctor was again surprised, we could hear baby kicking while we waiting to hear the heartbeat. I've decided baby likes to put on a show for us with every visit!

At our next visit we will finally find out the sex of baba!!! His/her names have been chosen already, from before baba was made:) Stay tuned as we find out next month...will we have a boy or a girl????

Baby reactions!!!

The very first people to find out about anyone's pregnancy is people that you know, love and trust! I'm not sure if it's with all cultures, but the news is only suppose to be told to those nearest and dearest till after you reach the 3 month milestone. This is due to the high miscarriage risk factor and being superstitious etc...

For me, I was of course with my Yellow and my best friend and sister, Beauty! She cried as if the news was that of her own, so happy that there will be a new addition to the family. She says 'being an aunty is an extension of motherhood!' I'm in total agreement there as her son is like my son, I love our little lion Damian-Lee like he is mine (as is the case with my 3 godchildren) and baby Lauryn who was recently added to my collection of children:) Don't I just sound like a hoarder? I was actually told that before, I love children so much I 'hoard' them, like really! Was even called 'the baby whisperer' before, my love of all beings children.

I can't say what it is about them, their innocence, that unfiltered joy? They know only of happiness, such little miracles they are.

So the reactions you get from people may differ, and the gap can be ...................................... so big! A friend of mine that I was recently reconnected with literally shed a tear of joy over the phone, heck, she made me want to cry! I could hear here jumping up and down, squealing with excitement at her place of work - imagine that!.
Another reaction was a full on 10 minute blank stare! You're in your happiest moment, that is not the reaction you're looking for. Others were filled with hugs and 'I'm so happy for you's'!!!

I think anyone who really knows me, knows how deep my love for children run.

 If you're an expecting first time mommy and have yet to tell your friends, tread with caution, not everyone will react as you imagine in your mind. Don't let it get you down, rejoice and take pride in the life you've helped create. Eventually the shock wears off and they can congratulate and be genuinely happy for you too:) Also remember, you are a tad bit more (like a zillion times more) hormonal than usual, so take it easy and don't overreact or read too much into things in the beginning.

:):):)

Saturday 8 June 2013

Mom, Dad...We're pregnant!

So I know that in this 'information age', there are various ways and means of spreading the news about one's new addition to the family.

Being a friend to many mothers before me, I've heard a few drastic ways in which their parents were informed. One of them simply sent a text!!! Hey mom, hey dad...I'm pregnant?! Hilarious:'''''D
Another one didn't actually tell them...but they kind of found out when she got admitted to hospital, I mean, what else would the doctors tell them?! I'm sure there are more quirky and more less than conventional ways out there...feel free to share!

The Friday my doctor called me to confirm the news, we were off to Mariental for 'belated' Independence Day celebrations (mind you, it's April). Little did my parents know what else they'd be celebrating! Luckily for us, Yellow's parents were on their farm too, so we decided to take a detour and tell them the news first. His parents, including both his grandmothers were overjoyed at the news, I felt more a part of the family than I already was! His dad however, told him he cannot tell my dad without him being present, one of those 'traditional' things. So now we had to set up a meeting for the Black & Yellow parents to finally meet....

So we ventured on to Mariental, and the moment I saw my mom I just had to tell her! I took her into the bedroom and it slide off my tongue so easily. She hugged me for a what seemed like a year, it was a good moment. She said 'so that's why you look more like me now, because you're going to be a mother.' I smiled, happy that the news was welcomed with positivity. I also told her about Yellow's parents wanting to meet them and tell them the news, she said she'll 'ease' my father into the news! from there onwards, we had a pretty awesome weekend, mom was fussier than usual - wear socks, keep warm, have tea- which can be expected of a grandmother:)

A week or two after that, the parents meeting took place! Yellow was a ball of nerves, he had a speech written and everything, dressed in formal wear ready to 'face' my dad and tell him the news! I held his hand under the table the whole time, his perfectly memorized speech went down well. I smiled inside all through the meeting. Our parents then pledged their support to us and our new addition to both the Boois and //Garoeb clans! They had dinner together afterwards, and told us 'you two can go now', like really!!! Two hours later they were laughing and chatting like old friends, it couldn't have gone any better.

However you decide to break the news to your parents, do it in a way that you feel comfortable with. Different people have different reactions, if it doesn't go down well, give them time to ease into it and slowly but surely they'll come round. I've seen parents go mad with fury at the news, but when they hold that little one in their hands, that fury changes to love.
I'm lucky and blessed to have the support system that I do from both my parents and his!


 

Thursday 6 June 2013

Take The Test!!!!

For those who know me, know that I'm a little bit of a party animal!!! Self proclaimed Miss Windhoek Lager, Miss Windhoek Draught, Miss Nam Breweries, Miss Beer SADC...you name it! Put simply, I LOVE beer:)

So it was to my surprise that beer made me nauseas:/ I took the a pregnancy test : negative! So I couldn't understand what was going on! Each test, each negative result was a disappointment. You smile either way, hoping one day it will be positive! So we ignored the sickness and life went on...still, very suspicious though!

It was at Spoken Word of April that I had my last glass of Windhoek Lager. After finishing it I told Yellow, that neaseating feeling is back and reverted back to a glass of cooldrink instead. The next day we bought what seemed like the 100th pregnancy test. The second line that indicates a positive result was visible although very light. Yellow immediatly went back to the pharmacy, bought another test, test # 101! same result...we were desperate for confirmation.

I called my doctor, he could only see me the next day! We were impatient, decided to look for any other doctor that could see me that very same day - big mistake! The doctor we went to did the very same urine test we did at home, and we had to pay more for it. Worse still, I didn't have my medical aid card on me so we paid cash! Things desperation does to one huh:)
Well, this doctor told us: 'it's a 50/50 chance...but INCASE you are, I also do prenatal care" !!! No confirmation there:/

We went to visit my "real" doctor who then did a blood test and said he would call me back with the results, this was more like it. There is no you are half pregnant, or 50/50! and so, we waited....24 hours seemed like an eternity. The very next day, Friday 5th April it was confirmed! Yellow and I seemed at our happiest, not knowing that even more happier moments are at every milestone of baby's growth:)

So here's my advice to those trying or who may think they are expecting: Go to a doctor that you know and trust! This will most likely also be the person who you will trust with the life of your little light.

As for me, the man who will be delivering my baby, also delivered me...in Dr Laurie I trust!!!

Wednesday 5 June 2013

Thank You & Dedication

Hello readers!

Wow! That is all that I can say about the feedback I've gotten about my very first blog!!! The responses were so positive, I want to take this time to say thank you to all of you!

Before I move on to my next topic, I want to send a special dedication to all the woman who reached out to me after reading 'In The Begining'. I'm honoured that you chose me to be the first person you told your story to. I believe that is the first step...breaking the silence! It's so inspiring that there are so many woman who have gone through a similar experience, I encourage you, break the chains of silence! For years I was ashamed and scared of what people will say, how they will look at me, but now I see, it was a character building experience. The loss of a child, whether optional or an act of God, is something no woman should have to go through. This is life though, we fall, we get up, and we become stronger. So to you I say, be strong, take it one day at a time. One day you too shall be released of the burdens that come with the loss of life!

Looking forward to sharing more with you, my readers:)

I thank you