The night before the D-Day, both Yellow and I were dozing in and out of sleep (if I can call that sleeping)! Random thoughts about baba disrupting our sleep...finally the morning came and it was almost time!
Bags packed, we headed to Rhino Park Private Hospital, "check-in" time was 11:30, baby was schedule to join the world at 13:00 !!!
We settled in and the sound of baba's heartbeat filled the room. Yellow and I were still making videos and taking pictures of how we chilled we were...it was about to get real and fast. What seemed like an eternity finally turned to the hour we had been waiting for. The nurses came into the room and wheeled the bed on which I lay, now only wearing that hospital gown where my rear was exposed, to the theatre!
And just like that, my heart rate picked up, I could feel every ounce of calm I had vanish like a thief in the night! Yellow saw the panic in my eye and assured me everything would be ok. He held my hand right up to the point where he had to 'scrub in':'''''D Fear of the unknown really is a funny thing, I had no idea what to expect.
By 13:00 I was strapped to the operating table, arms laid out like Jesus Christ on the cross. The epidural started to kick in, I remember asking for Yellow in German... "Wo ist papa???" I kept repeating!!! And finally he came to me all dressed up, I fell in love with him all over again, just for being there! At this point in time, Dr. Muller had already started but I was in my own world. Then I felt it, well not really but ...there was tugging...and just like that, they ripped my heart out, wrapped it in a blanket and showed it to me...my heart, my Clarissa, mine!
And then they were off, the down side to a C-section I suppose, shrugs. Yellow was recording and taking pictures of everything, how they measured her and cleaned her up. Born at 13:30, weighing in at 3.16kgs, I finally held the goga I shared my body with for 37weeks!
She's gorgeous is all I thought! How can someone so beautiful belong to me and complete my world! The happiness and the morphine had me spiraling, the purest form of joy now belongs to me!
A special thanks to all those who came to see us, bring us gifts and share in our joy! For every congratulatory message we are grateful for our baby is healthy, happy and strong, already lifting her head on day 1!
With this, our new journey begins...Life After Birth:):):):)
