Of Life & Living

Of life & living 

This life may not be worth living 

But YOUR life is!

Inhale. 

Worthy of the fresh air filling up our lungs

Exhale. 

Your life is worth living

Feel that? 

The breeze against your skin

The tiny hairs on your arms rise against the warmth of the sun

Own it, this life. 

Your life! 

Living among the walking dead, banish it 

Your life matters 

Take it, live it, it is forever yours 

Your best life

Your best you 

Be worthy, make it worthwhile 

Tomorrow is never guaranteed today 

So don't shy away from things you really want 

For this life, YOUR life, is totally worth living

Of Death & Dying

How often does the thought of death cross your mind?!


The 'what if'...
What if I never get to wake another day to my daughters "it's wakey time mommy" 
What if?!
What if I never wake from that surgery, or wake from my sleep?
What if? 
Surrounded by so much life yet thoughts of death lurk at every corner...
I think about my last "first kiss"...
The warmth of his arms around me...
I think about 'what if I never feel that warmth again?!' 
What if


But what is living in the "what if"?! 
Is that to live at all?!
Happy to be surrounded by so much joy and love and laughter in my life!
My existence to this very point, my achievements, my successes...my daughter!

She is my "what if you live till your 100 years old"
What legacy do I leave behind for her
My what ifs are fears...my dreams and hopes and aspirations scare me!
Take that fear! 
Make it your driving force!
Asked so many a time why I took the leap to leave home
To choose independence
To choose life!
...it's all for you, My Clarissa, My Yvonne
I choose life, no matter how hard, in the now
Things will get better for us, that's a promise
I stand by it 
I guarantee it!

My last first kiss awaits me still...
My honours belonged to you
My dream of my masters will be ours
Everything. For us
This house is yours, what else can mommy achieve?!
I can do it all
You can do it all! 
Whatever you want, dream it to life!

Because of death and dying? 
What of it?

We live, we laugh, we conquer
And one day when mommy is no more, know that you are love and that you are loved
Forever in this heart of mine
 

Forever yours
mommy