It’s the
dead of night…I’m surrounded by silence, the night is peaceful, but there is
turmoil in my heart. I have carried many burdens before but nothing like this
before. Could it be the cry of my country? The outrage heightened by woman gone
before their time? The children left behind asking, “is my mommy in heaven”?
I am more
than a woman. I am a mother. I never really knew what this would entail and
trust me; nothing can ever prepare you for the road of motherhood! I wanted “A”
baby; I didn’t grasp what that meant until I got THIS baby! She has changed me
to what I never was before…strong!
Do I blame
him…do I blame man? No…I blame me! I love him, without him
there would be no she. A love so pure has saved me…my daughter
gave me strength. When she looks at me, I feel like the most beautiful woman in
the world…she adores me! Who am I then, not to adore and love myself? She made
me want more for myself, now more than ever. And I will do anything for her, no
hesitations.
I wrote
about the single mom, her strengths, and her endless limits. I said what if HE
leaves me…what if he leaves us?! And then it hit me, I found that strength in
knowing what I want for my daughter as well as myself. I left, I want better. I
want her to grow up knowing that woman must be respected, always. You deserve to be treated
humanely and respected; there is no two ways about it.
And why are
we suffering in silence? Are you auditioning for ‘silence of the lambs’?
If you are
being mistreated, take your things and move along. I roar on the dune tops of Namibia that I am a mother, I
am fearless, I am strength!
I will not
plea for my life, and no longer will I live in fear. If it’s my day then let it
be so…I leave behind my blood and heart in that little girl that thinks I am
the next best thing to breast milk! I don’t know what I hope to achieve in
writing this, but I do know I found strength and so can you! Do not suffer
alone; do not suffer in silence…DO NOT KILL MY PASSION!
